I am watching Rooster on HBO Max, and one scene just stopped me.
The temporary dean loses a position she didn’t even want, yet she still misses it. She is grieving. She says she misses feeling heard.
Rooster tells her to stop looking at it as a loss and see it as a gift, because now she knows what she wants.
I took pause…..
Maybe that is what this moment is asking of me.
Maybe I need to pause all the random job applications and look inward…not just at the job I’m losing, but at what I loved about working in research.
The teamwork.
The hope.
The location.
The intellectual niche of it.
The feeling that my voice mattered.
Something was always haunting though, that it might be temporary… and it was. I used to say that when I finally found my professional home, if my office didn’t have a window, I would bring my own…a painting of a window overlooking an island….
Well that painting never made it to my office. It remains in my living room.
Maybe that is where it always belonged.
And maybe, for now, that is where I belong too…
Published by KB
This is my attempt to resuscitate a blog I started in 2019. Then COVID hit, life shifted, and I quietly drifted away from it. But now, I'm excited to revisit SBAR and see what it might become.
Think of this space as a comfortable virtual lounge where we can gather, reflect, and informally share our stories. I, like many of you, wear many hats, and I'd love to learn about the ones you're wearing. Which hats are your favorites? Which ones have served their purpose and can respectfully be taken off?
My nursing career of over 15 years often felt like climbing ladders...clinical ladders, academic ladders, professional ladders. In 2020, I stepped into my first APN role, and since then, my path has taken me in many directions, sometimes feeling less like a climb and more like wandering along the edge of a cliff.
Just when I was ready to give up, let go of my per diem positions, and stop searching for the elusive "right fit," something unexpected happened. A new opportunity found me. I'm now stepping into the world of clinical research, and for the first time in a long time, I feel like I may have found my work home.
Outside of healthcare, I am also a yoga instructor (forever student), a wife and mother, a traveler, and most recently, a writer...
I'd love to connect with like-minded people and share our experiences beneath the many hats we wear. Maybe, together, we can find the courage to occasionally take a few of them off, set them beside us for a while, and get reacquainted with the person underneath.
With gratitude,
KB
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